Saturday, November 15, 2014

Tamara

I don't know how many times am I going to write a post that starts with her name. I think part of me hopes that she might answer one day. I know it's impossible but ... 
I wonder when and how long will take for the vivid memories to fade. I still think about sharing thoughts and new discoveries with her. The first thought that comes to mind everytime my children do or say something funny is "wait till Tamara hears of this". I try to share things here and there but it only provides little comfort... 
Yes it's true the pain in my heart at the thought of her loss is "less" or is it... 
More than a year now and there is still shock, disbelieve and the secret wish that it is just one horrible nightmare.